Mistakes

"You made a mistake."

"But I stayed. I worked. I learned. I never made that mistake again.
If I had quit, all I would have had was that life.. that I lost.
Instead, I get to save lives. Everyday, I get to save lives."

Lamentation

It's normal to get lost. We get lost all the time. It only becomes a problem when we can not find our way back. And sometimes, we can never find our way back.

So, who gets to decide who gets lost and who survive? What defines a survivor and makes one a failure?

One who is given the strength and motivation to go on, but another who is deprived of the privilege to feel what it means to always be inspired.

Do we get to choose the turmoil we are thrown into?

I am judgmental, stubborn, erratic, self-righteous, most snobbish person I have ever known. If this is a chance for me to correct that, I pray O Allah for some time of atonement.

I do not know when, I just know that I need time. Please...

A note to self

What do you do when you are stuck at a crossroad in life? The point where you will have to make a choice. A choice that will seem trivial now, but will change you in ways only the future will reveal. How do you make the right choice?

Right. Wrong. Where do you draw the line between 2 areas of immensely different entity? It is as if they are merged in the middle to become one and leave you behind in a state of perplexity to only realize that life is never black and white. We all live in the grays.

We are all fighting to get somewhere. We might not know where yet, but we are already embarking on that journey since the first day our lungs began to ventilate. And nobody said the journey would be an easy one. Just remember that everyone's fighting, so be happy that you are still given the chance to fight.

Stop whining already and get to it!

Once in Awhile

There is so many feelings you can have at a time. There is so many secrets you can keep bottled up inside of you. Until a point where hope is beyond your grasp.

Why is it so easy to feel like you are loosing yourself sometimes?

We often seem to forget, in the midst of chaos that we live in, that when it comes down to it all we ever crave for is understanding and better still, acceptance.

Not to accept that we shall be stuck forever in confusion or in a sea of ignorance, no. But to accept that to be human is to err, to fall, to succumb to ill desires, to just let go.

Beyond everything else, to have faith that our spirit will once again soar to the peak of victory. When we truly believe that circumstances can be changed, for the better.

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