Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Hidayah Itu

Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku
HambaMu merindukan
Rahmat kasih sayangMu
Dan jua keredhaanMu
Dalam hidupku

Meskipun ku ulangi dosa noda
Yang menjanjikan azab sengsara
Namun ku sedari
KeampunanMu tidak bertepi

Ku akui diri ini
Hamba yang mungkir pada janji-janji
Jadikanlah taubat ini yang sejati
PadaMu Ilahi

Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku
Ya Allah, redhakanlah kehidupanku
Moga terhapus penghijab kalbu
Antara Kau dan aku

Ku zalimi diri ini
Andai Kau tak ampuni dan rahmati
Alangkah ruginya diri

Jangan Kau palingkan hati ini
Setelah Kau beri hidayah
Sesungguhnya Kau Maha Pengasih

Monday, August 25, 2008

A Mother Is...

The DENTIST who uses a string.

The SUNSHINE on a cloudy day.

The STORY TELLER when you can't get to sleep.

The DOCTOR who cures poison ivy.

The TEACHER who teaches about life.

The SEAMSTRESS who patches torn jeans.

The COMEDIAN who makes you laughs when you're down.

The CHEERLEADER at all sports activities.

The NURSE who bandages a scraped knee.

The ARTIST who teaches finger painting.

The LAUNDRY LADY who keeps you dressed so nice.

The BAKER who makes chocolate chip cookies.

The TUTOR who helps with homework.

The COUNSELOR who gives guidance.

The CLEANING LADY who finds the bedroom floor.

The TOOTH FAIRY who rewards you for your pain.

The HEALER of your first broken heart.

The DISHWASHER who never complains.

The SELF-ESTEEM BUILDER for everyone.

The COOK who keeps the meals balanced.

The DREAM CATCHER who helps find dreams.

The KLEENEX that dries the tears.

The KEY that unlocks the door to the future.

The JUDGE who makes decisions with wisdom.

The SINGER who taught childhood songs.

The LIGHT that guides through dark moments.

The EGO BUILDER, picking you up when you're down.

The DRUGGIST who knows the cure for your pain.

The PRAYING HANDS that guide spiritually.

The GUARDIAN ANGEL who keeps you safe.

The FRIEND who puts real meaning into "I Love You"!

And the paradise is under the feet of your mothers
- Prophet Muhammad (saw)


Rasa macam banyak pusing-pusing je sekarang. Tapi tak kisah lah. Yang penting saya bahagia. Macam malas nak fikir sangat situasi sekarang. Tapi fikir-fikir balik, rasanya biar je kut apa yang nak jadi. Eh, tapi memang lah kena usaha. Cuma tak perlu risau sangat je kut. Sebab yang terbaik dah Allah tetapkan. Wheeee~

Hehhe. Sorry. My life is full of distractions lately. I guess it's part and parcel of being a grown-up, or trying to be one! =P

Can you be surrounded by so many people yet still feel so lonely?

Monday, August 18, 2008

Life is like coffee

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university lecturer. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups: porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain-looking and some expensive and exquisite, telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the lecturer said: "If you noticed, all the nice-looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones.

"While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress".

What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups." "Now, if Life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change."

Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it." So don't let the cups drive you...enjoy the coffee instead.

"So do not become weak (against your enemy), nor be sad, and you will be superior (in victory) if you are indeed (true) believers"
Al-'Imran 3:139

(Taken from ReSeam_Padi)

Friday, August 15, 2008

Being Strong

I miss someone. I hope you miss me too.
(mesti semua orang akan perasan! =P)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Random thoughts

Iman tak dapat diwarisi dari seorang ayah yang bertakwa.

Contrary to what most people want to believe, outside influences do not usually determine personal happiness. What matters is how we react to those influences, good or bad.

Wahai, manusia, kita harus sabar mentaatiNya, kita harus sabar meninggalkan laranganNya.

Dalam persahabatanmu janganlah mengkhianati sahabatmu yang sejati.

Setting the example is very important. You can't expect from others what you're not willing to expect from yourself.

Tuhan dulu pernah aku menagih simpati kepada manusia yang alpa jua buta, lalu terheretlah aku di lorong gelisah, luka hati yang berdarah, kini jadi kian parah.

Tak ingin lagi ku ulangi kembali, gerak dosa yang menghiris hati.

Tuhan, dosaku menggunung tinggi, tapi rahmatMu melangit luas, harga selautan syukurku hanyalah setitis nikmatMu di bumi.

Tuhan, walau taubat sering ku ungkit, namun pengampunanMu tak pernah bertepi. Bila selangkah ku rapat padaMu, seribu langkah Kau rapat padaku.

For now, I am content. Alhamdulillah.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Dunia hari ini

What is happening to the world today?





Wars. Death. Innocent lives. Muslim lives.

I thought it was fundamentally a fight between truth and falsehood.

Perhaps it is.

But then, suddenly, there is South-Ossetia in Georgia. A small country now stuck in the middle of the battle between giants. A country where up until now Islam has only historically and officially stepped maybe half a foot (or less: just a toe I can say) in. A country that has suddenly become famous again in a night because a bomb was dropped in its territory about a week ago that also killed innocent lives. A war is raging.

To tell the whole story about Ossetia would take forever. And furthermore, I don't know the whole story, yet. Hehhe. Anyway, to make the issue simple but understandable, Ossetia was once a state on its own under the sovereignty of the Soviet Union (SU) which is reduced to what is now Russia. However, during the collapse of the SU power, Ossetia was divided into North Ossetia to be under Russia and South Ossetia became a part of Georgia.

In the early 1990s, South Ossetia declared its independence from Georgia but it was internationally unrecognized. In 2006, they made a second independence referendum which was again internationally unrecognized. Finally, an autonomous status was given to them by the Georgian government in 2007.

I guess an autonomous status was not enough. South Ossetia wanted to be a country on its own.

"Tensions came to a head with Kosovo’s declaration of independence and the push to offer Georgia a membership action plan and eventual inclusion into NATO. Russia immediately began throwing its weight around in both South Ossetia and another breakaway province, Abkhazia. It appears that Russia is now making its play." (click on this paragraph to read about this issue)

That was when, Georgia started being hostile. On August 8, 2008, on the same day as the 2008 Olympic Games officially commenced, hostilities began between Georgian forces and South Ossetia's separatist forces. And that was when Russia started showing it fangs trying to regain its status as one of the worlds super power again. While the Unites States is fighting back to maintain its status as the current world super power through its ally, Georgia. Boleh nampak tak situasi sebenarnya, perang antara siapakah ini? Essentially NOT a fight between Georgia and South Ossetia only.

Right, I hope you guys can understand what I just babbled about. If you don't then you can either google it or go read the newspaper or if you're too lazy, open tv3.com.my and listen to the 8 o'clock buletin utama. =P

Now we can go to my point exactly. Muslim countries have been straddled in wars since the past century between their own forces but mostly due to the engagement and attack of the west. Usually there is oil and political influence involved, not because of peace treaty aspirations per say. The media, however, will throw a whole lot of crap about Islam being a terrorist and oppressive religion.

Thus, when we focus into what is happening in South-Ossetia we can see that when power and worldly prestige becomes the centre of attention, civilians become the victims. And the lives of human beings become only numbers in death statistics. So, who then is the real oppressor?

Ok, my brain is now in catastrophe! Huhhu. When it comes to voicing out my opinion on strong matters I tend to often stumble midway. My humble apologies to those who are reading this.

Saya cuma ingin kamu tahu bahawa hati saya inginkan Islam yang sebenar kembali menakluk dunia. Ketika hati-hati manusia bertaut atas aqidah yang satu, maka kasih sayang itu akan datang dengan ikhlas kerana Tuhan yang satu. And all those stupid stupid wars will become history.

When will that time come?

Only Allah knows.

But have we done our part in defending and propagating the truth?

Ketuk hati, buka minda dan tanyalah iman anda.

Shift your paradigm and change your life now!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Sekadar ingin difahami

Kadang-kadang bila kita cerita dekat orang, orang tak faham.

Tapi kita tahu, Allah faham, Allah mengerti, Allah tahu segala isi hati.

Thank you for being there Allah. =)

Friday, August 08, 2008


Tarikh keramat kata orang. Ramai yang bernikah pada hari ini. Termasuklah bekas ketua pelajar, Sekolah Tun Fatimah tahun 2003, sahabat yang dikasihi, Nurhidayah Jaris. (boleh click di sini)

Yang kedua dalam batch kini sudah menjadi isteri orang. Tahniah Dayot! “Semoga Allah membarakahi kalian dan melimpahkan barakah kepada kalian, dan mengumpulkan kalian dalam kebaikan, serta mengurniakan kalian zuriat yang memberi manfaat kepada Islam dan muslimin keseluruhannya” Amin.

Semakin ramai rakan-rakan saya yang sudah atau sedang melangkah masuk ke alam perkahwinan. Generasi sebelum-sebelum ini mungkin kurang menyokong keputusan berkahwin muda yang saya lihat semakin menular di kalangan generasi techno (generasi saya) sekarang. Tapi saya kira perkara ini lah yang harus digalakkan untuk sama-sama menjaga kemaslahatan ummah keseluruhannya. Untuk sama-sama menjaga dosa pahala kita semua supaya kita yang melihat tidak terlibat sama kerana tidak membantu mengurangkan jalan ke arah kemaksiatan yang berlaku akibat proses pernikahan yang disusahkan dan dicomplicatedkan oleh manusia sendiri.

Ya, sudah tentu mereka yang sudah nekad mengenai tindakan penting ini harus faham tanggungjawab yang perlu dipikul setalah akad dilafazkan. Memang berat, amat berat. And it should be hammered into their heads I believe! Tetapi saya juga percaya, jika ibu bapa dan anak-anak ini sama-sama berbincang secara terbuka dan memperbetulkan niat untuk apa sebenarnya ikatan tersebut perlu dihalalkan, maka InsyaAllah tidak perlu ada kerisauan melampau (sikit-sikit tu normal kut) mengenai kehidupan selepas berkahwin. For Allah is the best of Helpers.

It is often perceived by parents that their children will forever be their children. But life is real and for that we must be realistic. Realistic in the sense that we have to acknowledge the fact that those who are once young and naive can become more competent than we were. And life is also what is fated by Allah. Thus, for that we must put our trust only in Allah that He will Provide for us in whatever ways He deems best.

Kadang-kadang kita rasa seseorang itu perlu ada kerja glamour, kerja tetap dan gaji besar sebelum kita label dia sebagai "mampu". Tapi mampu yang Rasulullah sendiri maksudkan adalah mampu untuk mencari nafkah BUKAN kerja glamour. Nah, jika nyawa masih di dada, jika tenaga masih mengalir di dalam tubuh, jika semangat dan keinginan yang kuat untuk berjaya dan menjayakan Islam masih tetap utuh, itulah sebenarnya mampu yang sudah cukup untuk kita mula bertatih. Rezeki seseorang itu sudah ditetapkan sebelum ia lahir ke dunia, maka, untuk apa dirisaukan perkara yang sudah ditetapkan? Lebih baik kerisauan itu diarahkan kepada perkara kebaikan dan kebajikan yang masih banyak perlu dilangsaikan, lebih baik dirisaukan bagaimana mahu memenangkan Islam.

Haih. Entah apa-apa sudah saya bebelkan ni. Maaf jika ada yang tersinggung. Sekadar melepaskan rasa hati dan buah fikiran yang semakin berbuku di dalam diri. Mungkin kita perlu lihat kembali hadith Rasulullah dan ayat Kalamullah ini:

Bila seseorang lelaki yang kamu ridhai agama dan akhlaknya meminang(anak perempuanmu), nikahkanlah dia. Apabila engkau tidak menikahkannya, niscaya akan terjadi fitnah di muka bumi dan kerusakan yang meluas.
(Hadith Riwayat Tirmidzi)

“Dan di antara tanda-tanda kekuasaan-Nya ialah Dia telah menciptakan untuk kamu isteri-isteri dari jenis kamu sendiri supaya kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepada mereka dan Allah jadikan di antara kamu perasaan mesra dan kasih sayang.” (Ar-Rum:21)

Sekadar renungan bersama. Semoga kita tidak termasuk golongan yang menyusahkan perkara yang dimudahkan Allah. Wallahualam.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

I guess it's fate!

You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)

You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.

You were born to be a doctor.

Don't ask me why I suddenly took the time to do this test.
But to be frank, the result actually shocked me. Honest.
Allah does know best. =)

Monday, August 04, 2008

When my mind starts to wander haywire

Today we received a new lecturer for O&G. His name is Dr. Niraj. He is a Malaysian Indian. He did his MRCP (you can consider it as equivalent to MASTERS) in South Wales and worked as a lecturer for sometime in UCL (University College London) teaching medical students. So, basically he only just came back to Malaysia a month ago untuk berbakti kepada anak bangsa. And he is super cool.

My group was about to have a bedside tutorial with Professor A at 2.30 pm just now and he came, tagging along behind him a handsome looking man who was apparently Dr. Naraj. After a short introduction, he stated a simple fact that Dr. Niraj was going to join the O&G UPM specialist on board from that moment henceforth. We didn't actually paid that much attention (at all) to him. We were more scared of facing Prof. A unprepared as we always were.

Anyway, after much shouting and cursing from Prof. A (as usual), we were handed as a surprise to Dr. Niraj to continue another case discussion.

From a dull group of uncooperative, silent, dull-looking people, we were magically transformed into a bunch of hyperactive, fun, curious, can't-stop-asking-questions medical students. And it only took an hour with Dr. Niraj to bring out the best in each and everyone of us with NO scolding or shouting at all.

And it made my mind wonder. Aiyok!

The traditional Malay way would be to scold us so that we would be "molded" into perfect beings. If you noticed, just like what the first doctor did. And if you really really noticed, just like the environment we Malays are brought up with.

Thus, it comes as no surprise (I believe) that most Malays who have never been exposed to the atmosphere outside this country turn out to be a rigid, reactive (definitely not proactive!), non-innovative society as a whole. Or am I making a huge assumption here?

Anyway, my point is, our prophet Muhammad s.a.w has always been an adult who never seems to forget the fun and intuitive side of young people. Just look at how he treated his daughters with respect. Remember the story of him and Anas bin Malik? And how he treats children with patience, love, care and tenderness. Like what is recorded about him and his grandson Husain while he was praying.

Some people might want to give excuses that without "true" discipline, youngsters tend to be uncontrollable. But take a awhile to ponder. Is that really the case, or are we just giving ourselves excuses. So, that we can actually use our privilege as adults to do anything we like to those below us for the sake of our own convenience just because we are too tired to treat them well or we lack the patience to do so?

But at the expanse of generations of true potentials unexposed and undeveloped. Just think about it.