Friday, November 16, 2007


Kita Manusia Yang Hina dan Allah Memuliakan Kita dengan Islam

Renungkanlah peribadi Umar bin Khattab ra ketika hari pertamanya memeluk Islam. Tidak perlahan tamparan jahiliah yang menyapa pipi Fathimah adiknya, akan tetapi apabila dia dipancari hidayah dalam hatinya dia berkata;

“Ya Rasulullah, bukankah kita dalam kebenaran?”

“Ya.” Jawab Baginda.

“Bukankah mereka dalam kebatilan?”


“Lalu mengapa kita harus sembunyi-sembunyi?”

“Lalu apa pendapatmu Umar?”

“Serulah Islam terang-terangan.”

Maka Rasulullah saw menggelarnya Al-Faruq kerana Allah menganugerahkan kepadanya kemampuan membezakan hak dan batil.

Ukirkanlah kata Umar dibilikmu, dirumahmu, dimana sahaja. Ukirkanlah dan hiasilah dengan tinta emas. Fahamilah kata-katanya dibawah;

“Nahnu qaumun a’azzanallah bil Islam, famahna nabtaghi izzah, bi ghairi ma a’azzanallah, azallanallahu. Kita adalah kaum yang hina, kemudian Allah muliakan kita dengan Islam, barangsiapa yang mencari kemuliaan selain dari apa yang Allah muliakan kita, maka Allah pasti akan menghina kita.


Allah, please, give me strength to be brave in doing what is truly right. Even when it is perceived by others as fickle. Because only You know what is true and what is not.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Don't even think about it.

I'm falling. I'm falling. I'm falling.

Here is when I write: And there's no one there to catch me...

Who am I kidding?

[39:53] Proclaim: "O My servants who exceeded the limits, never despair of God's mercy. For God forgives all sins. He is the Forgiver, Most Merciful."

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

A place called Here.

Sometimes, people can go missing right before your very eyes. Sometimes, people discover you, even though they’ve been looking at you the entire time. Sometimes, we loose sight of ourselves when we’re not paying enough attention.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Random thoughts and acts

I always think that I don't have enough to give to the society as a whole. I always ask myself, what's the point of me doing this, doing that, if all it does is bring about emptiness to an already confused and chaotic world?

Sometimes I wonder, the times I used to blog, is it just a waste of creative energy and spirit down the drain? Can a short paragraph of incoherent thoughts be of such significant to a universe that is already full of trash?

And then I stumbled upon an angel of great tidings (a friend, in simpler terms =P) who came up with such an exquisite form of logic that I almost hit my self on the head for not coming up with it first!

"If we let a space be, ultimately it will be filled by some good elements and some bad ones. So, if we want the good elements to dominate and prevail, then we should fill and fill and fill the space with so much goodness until there is no space left at all for badness to trample on. Betul tak?" -quote-

I think I almost kissed her that time. Well I did say almost. So, I urge everyone on this small earth to blog and blog about everything that is good and noble and pure for the heart and soul to nourish on. May our blogging be counted as Ibadah, an act of worship to the Almighty.

Anyway, that aside, I bought 3 books just now in MPH Midvalley. It was actually a "buka puasa" excursion with some of my old-time friends from school. I went hunting for new books while they were observing the second pillar of Islam - I'm on leave by the way, for those who're wondering. I really hope it was a good buy.

Sometimes, when you think you've become a better person, something happens to remind you that there is always improvement to be made in every nook and cranny. Life is always a surprise. God works in mysterious ways. Never look down on people, you never know when they're going to teach you a lesson.

Monday, September 24, 2007

In the lights of recent events: Nurin Jazlin

Buat pertama kali kita, rakyat malaysia, dikejutkan dengan kisah pembunuhan seksual terancang seorang kanak-kanak yang tidak bersalah. Please read this article by Ustaz Hasrizal to get my perspective on this case. You will understand the real depth of terror and dread of Nurin's aftermath. Be reminded, JUDGEMENT DAY is TRUE. And no one can run away from it. Sedarlah umat manusia. A reminder for myself. =(

**Quoted from a comment in the article cited above:

Alhamdulillah, marilah kita mengambil hikmah, iktibar dan pengajaran dari musibah yang berlaku baru-baru ini. Semoga kita mendapat yang terbaik darinya. Amin.

Apakan peranan kita sebagai seorang ibu? Patutkah kita menyalahkan diri kita sendiri? Kajilah sikap diri kita terhadap anak-anak.

Apakan kasih saying yang kita berikan untuk anak-anak itu ikhlas kerana Allah?
Atau kita mengharapkan balasan yang berupa kebendaan bila mereka dewasa nanti!
Apakan kita memberikan pendidikan yang seimbang kepada anak-anak?
Atau kita mementingkan pendidikan akedemik dari pendidikan rohani!
Apakah kita mendidik anak-anak untuk mengenal Allah?
Atau kita medidik mereka untuk lupakanNya degan kesibukan dunia!
Apakah kita bertanggung jawab mendidik anak-anak kerana Allah akan menanya kita di akhirat kelak?
Atau kita serahkan kepada pembantu, guru-guru dan yang lain!
Apakah kita memberi perhatian apabila mereka berbicara kepada kita?
Atau kita tidak mengindahkan mereka dengan kata-kata pergi tanya ayah sebab ibu sibuk ni!
Apakan kita menanamkan keimanan dalam hati anak-anak?
Atau kita menanam kemungkaran sehingga mereka menolak fitrah!
Apakan kita meluangkan waktu untuk bermain-main dengan anak-anak?
Atau kita menyuruh mereka pergi bermain dengan video game yang bertemakan keganasan!
Apakah kita meyedarkan anak-anak dengan dasar-dasar akhlak yang mulia?
Atau kita serahkan kepada TV untuk menerap dasar-dasar yang tidak bermoral!
Apakah kita mengamalkan berdoa untuk anak-anak?
Atau kita lalai atau kurang berdoa untuk mereka!
Apakah kita memberi motivasi atau dorongan yang positif kepada anak-anak?
Atau kita menakutkan mereka dengan kekerasan dan paksaan!
Apakah kita menegur anak-anak dengan penuh kasih saying?
Atau dengan mengeluarkan kata-kata kasar dan makian!
Apakan kita membersihkan hati anak-anak kita daripada sifat yang keji?
Atau kita kotorinya dengan sifat-sifat yang keji!
Apakah kita menunjukkan penampilan diri yang bersesuaian dangan syarak kepada anak-anak?
Atau kita berpakaian seksi dihadapan mereka!
Apakah kita menanam rasa cinta dan takut kepada Allah dan cinta akhirat dalam hati anak-anak?
Atau kita tanam dengan sifat remeh cintakan dunia yang tidak mempunyai nilai apa-apa!

Kajilah diri sendiri dan buatlah perubahan sikap kerana anak-anak akan mencerminkan pribadi kita nanti…

**End of quoatation.

Buat ibu-ibu dan bakal ibu-ibu di luar sana, let us observe, listen and learn. Our children might and may have been Nurin..

Ya Allah, build in me my faith, my convictions towards the truth and my confidence in You. Help me to be a good Muslim so that I can become a good mother one day. And may my children be given the chance to feel the sweetness of Iman and the serenity of Islam. Amin.

Yours truly,

A Muslim, a daughter, a sister, a student, a future wife, a future daughter-in-law, a future MOTHER.

Friday, September 14, 2007

It's a brand new day! =)

Be good ourselves, be good to others and help others be good!

That's my number one motto from today onwards. Hati tengah berbunga-bunga sekarang. Bukan sebab pakwe call, saya takde pakwe ye. Bukan juga sebab tak perlu puase, saya puase ye hari ni. Hehhe. But because I made someone smile today. No make that two.

Person A was a makcik in ward 7B. Nak cerita panjang-panjang pun takut orang yang baca (if ada lagi lah orang yang baca blog saya ni, hehhe) nanti pening pulak kan. So to make it short, let's just say she was previously reported to have a case of major depression. Of course this time she was admitted due to an acute exacerbated asthma attack but after clerking her, I found out that the underlying cause or we might as well call it the trigger factor for her current attack was due to an extremely high stress level.

Just a quick history, she used to own her restaurant but last August 2006, she experienced a big business downfall and to top it up, she divorced her husband just a week after. Last week was the anniversary of her separation. She has four kids but the eldest, a 28 year old boy has been creating problems and now she is also estranged from her four kids. She lives alone with no one to talk to. She is a smoker. I advice her to stop. And guess what? She started crying her heart out telling me that she only has the cigarette as her best friend, "someone" she can talk to that won't hurt her or betray her like her husband did.

She trusts no one she said and she has been keeping her problems all to herself because she has no one. Jadi saya pun comfort lah dia. Saya kata, "But you have Allah kan?". She said she always prayed for Allah to give her strength and hidayah, she had never done any bad things to anyone, but still she gets all the bad things in life. She even tried to kill herself once. Astagfirullah. But Alhamdulillah she gained back her perspective in life after that. However, it was sad when I found out that she only resorted to becoming a workaholic so she won't have to think of her depression. Ni bukan menyelesaikan masalah ni, ni melarikan diri dari masalah! Huhu. Tapi tu saya cakap kat diri sendiri je lah. Hehhe.

But anyway, since I had something else important to do at that time, I exchanged phone numbers with her and asked her to call me anytime she needs someone to talk to. I'm not sure if my act is considered a threat or not to the professionalism and ethics of a doctor that is to not get emotional involve with a patient, but wuddeheck! She is after all a human being with a heart too.

So, petang tadi bila dah free pergi lah hospital balik, nak check on the patient. Hehhe. Dari jauh dia nampak muke saya, a big big smile automatically appeared on her face. And I swear, at that particular moment in time, nothing is worth better than that. =)

Person B was a makcik who works in the cafe of my college. Well, yang ni I didn't do anything much. Walking back from Hospital Serdang, I usually stop at the cafe to buy nasi putih and 2 types of lauk but I don't like the fried mixed veggies they sell so I always asked for fresh salads, timun and carrots all uncooked, from this makcik yang jaga bahagian jual nasi ayam. Sebelum ni bila minta just senyum and cakap terima kasih je lah. But today somehow, bulan yang mulia, alhamdulillah saya tergerak hati nak tanya dia namanya. Sambil dia sebut her name "Kak Mina", she smiled. How beautiful her smile was! Hehhe. Well, that was it basically. But when I was walking back to my room just now from the cafe, I skipped a merry cheery beat. Because I am happy.

Thank you Allah. For making my day. =)

“No one of you (truly) believes until he loves for his brother what he loves for himself.”

(narrated by: Al-Bukhari and Muslim)

Do you love your Creator? Love your fellow-beings first.

(Prophet Muhammad)

Wednesday, September 12, 2007


"God does allow U-turns"

Caption ini terasa sangat2 menarik hati saya.
Mungkin nampak simple,
tapi sebenarnya besar dan mendalam sungguh
makna yang tersirat di sebaliknya.
Bahawa seteruk mana dosa kita,
setinggi gunung mana kesilapan yang selalu kita buat...
yang pasti...rahmat Tuhan itu lebih banyak dan tinggi lagi dari itu.
Sebab apa? Sebab dia Tuhan yang Maha Pengasih.. lagi Maha Penyayang..
The Most Beneficient. The Most Merciful.
The Most Forgiving.
Cuma kita saja terkadang lupa.

- quoted from Mai Shahira

I stumble and I stumble and I fall.
But I must always find the strength;
to pick myself up again and fight on.
And the truth shall prevail.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Open up to the light; to what is right

As our boxes, our hearts and our trust in God open up; we are faced with new challenges. We meet those with different cultures, lives, dreams and views. We meet those who are reluctant to feel the earth, taste the rain and lean naturally to the sun, growing to the light of God’s mercy. As we share this road of life, shall we not share the gift of hope in the way it was shared by the Prophets of the past with their people?

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

A feeling too deep

There was a time when life was so simple. There was a time when I can only think of myself and never grieve over the sad plight of the world. There was a time when my mind was free from the torment of humanity's collapsing civilization. There was a time...

In the instance where the heart and mind meets the soul, I am scourged.

Happiness takes no meaning when everything that was once the centre of your life becomes pale in comparison to the Centre of being. The Beginning of the beginning. The End of the end. Yet despite the realization of truth, despite the snap of reality that was given by the power that be, running away from perfection seems a much more compelling choice than being stuck between what one desires and the burden of duty that one carries. Desire over duty?

Have you ever felt like drowning in a sea of storms and raging oceans? You gasp for a gulp of air to fill your suffocating lungs. For just a second too short you get a whiff, and then chunks of waves pushes you down, gravity adding to the strength of the haul rendering you breathless all over again. It goes on and on and on, until a time comes when you feel that everything, anything you do will only drown you deeper and deeper into the deep dark waters below. Will you give up? Can you give up? And IF you give up, what happens then?

But then again, life is never a metaphor.

May Allah provide us with strength to fight the plunges of waves of this life so that one day, we may be able to take a whiff of paradise. Amin.

Monday, July 23, 2007

Something to ponder on. [busy mode]

Dont fret about your affairs, leave it in His hands.
Do you think if He wants it for you, anyone can stop it?
Or if He doesnt want it for you anyone can grant it?
Dont look to anyone for your needs.
For the One who created you, knows you.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007


Ok, sometimes we have the tendency to do weird things at weird times. So, this is my time. Bits and pieces of it are true. But in the end, Allah knows me best. Toodles for now! =D

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Airmata Rasulullah

Ada sebuah kisah tentang cinta yang sebenar-benar cinta yang dicontohkan Allah melalui kehidupan Rasul-Nya. Pagi itu, walaupun langit telah mulai menguning, burung-burung gurun enggan mengepakkan sayap. Pagi itu,Rasulullah dengan suara terbatas memberikan kutbah,

"Wahai umatku, kita semua ada dalam kekuasaan Allah dan cinta kasih Nya. Maka taati dan bertakwalah kepada-Nya. Kuwariskan dua perkara pada kalian, Al-Qur'an dan sunnahku. Barang siapa mencintai sunnahku, bererti mencintai aku dan kelak orang orang yang mencintaiku, akan masuk syurga bersama sama aku."

Khutbah singkat itu diakhiri dengan pandangan mata Rasulullah yang tenang dan penuh minat menatap sahabatnya satu persatu.

Abu Bakar menatap mata itu dengan berkaca-kaca, Umar dadanya naik turun menahan nafas dan tangisnya. Usman menghela nafas panjang dan Ali menundukkan kepalanya dalam-dalam. Isyarat itu telah datang, saatnya sudah tiba. "Rasulullah akan meninggalkan kita semua," keluh
hati semua sahabat kala itu. Manusia tercinta itu, hampir selesai menunaikan tugasnya didunia.

Tanda-tanda itu semakin kuat, tatkala Ali dan Fadhal dengan cergas menangkap Rasulullah yang berkeadaan lemah dan goyah ketika turun dari mimbar. Disaat itu, kalau mampu, seluruh sahabat yang hadir di sana pasti akan menahan detik-detik berlalu.

Matahari kian tinggi, tapi pintu rumah Rasulullah masih tertutup. Sedang didalamnya, Rasulullah sedang terbaring lemah dengan keningnya yang berkeringat dan membasahi pelepah kurma yang menjadi alas tidurnya.

Tiba-tiba dari luar pintu terdengar seorang yang berseru mengucapkan salam. "Bolehkah saya masuk?" tanyanya.

Tapi Fatimah tidak mengizinkannya masuk,"Maafkanlah, ayahku sedang demam," kata Fatimah yang membalikkan badan dan menutup pintu.

Kemudian ia kembali menemani ayahnya yang ternyata sudah membuka mata dan bertanya pada Fatimah, "Siapakah itu wahai anakku?"

"Tak tahulah ayahku, orang sepertinya baru sekali ini aku melihatnya," tutur Fatimah lembut. Lalu, Rasulullah menatap puterinya itu dengan pandangan yang menggetarkan. Seolah-olah bahagian demi bahagian wajah anaknya itu hendak dikenang.

"Ketahuilah, dialah yang menghapuskan kenikmatan sementara, dialah yang memisahkan pertemuan di dunia. Dialah malakul maut,"kata Rasulullah,

Fatimah pun menahan ledakkan tangisnya. Malaikat maut datang menghampiri, tapi Rasulullah menanyakan kenapa Jibril tidak ikut sama menyertainya.

Kemudian dipanggilah Jibril yang sebelumnya sudah bersiap di atas langit dunia menyambut ruh kekasih Allah dan penghulu dunia ini.

"Jibril, jelaskan apa hakku nanti di hadapan Allah?" Tanya Rasululllah dengan suara yang amat lemah.

"Pintu-pintu langit telah terbuka, para malaikat telah menanti ruhmu. Semua syurga terbuka lebar menanti kedatanganmu," kata Jibril. Tapi itu ternyata tidak membuatkan Rasulullah lega, matanya masih penuh kecemasan.

"Engkau tidak senang mendengar khabar ini?" Tanya Jibril lagi.

"Khabarkan kepadaku bagaimana nasib umatku kelak?"

"Jangan khawatir, wahai Rasul Allah, aku pernah mendengar Allah berfirman kepadaku: 'Kuharamkan syurga bagi siapa saja, kecuali umat Muhammad telah berada di dalamnya," kata Jibril.

Detik-detik semakin dekat, saatnya Izrail melakukan tugas.Perlahan ruh Rasulullah ditarik. Nampak seluruh tubuh Rasulullah bersimbah peluh, urat-urat lehernya menegang. "Jibril, betapa sakit sakaratul maut ini." Perlahan Rasulullah mengaduh.

Fatimah terpejam, Ali yang di sampingnya menunduk semakin dalam dan Jibril memalingkan muka.

"Jijikkah kau melihatku, hingga kau palingkan wajahmu Jibril?" Tanya Rasulullah pada Malaikat pengantar wahyu itu.

"Siapakah yang sanggup, melihat kekasih Allah direnggut ajal," kata Jibril.

Sebentar kemudian terdengar Rasulullah memekik, kerana sakit yang tidak tertahankan lagi. "Ya Allah, dahsyat nian maut ini, timpakan saja semua siksa maut ini kepadaku, jangan pada umatku."

Badan Rasulullah mulai dingin, kaki dan dadanya sudah tidak bergerak lagi. Bibirnya bergetar seakan hendak membisikkan sesuatu, Ali segera mendekatkan telinganya.

"Uushiikum bis shalati, wa maa malakat aimanuku"
"Peliharalah shalat dan peliharalah orang-orang lemah di antaramu."

Di luar pintu tangis mulai terdengar bersahutan, sahabat saling berpelukan. Fatimah menutupkan tangan di wajahnya, dan Ali kembali mendekatkan telinganya ke bibir Rasulullah yang mulai kebiruan. "Ummatii, ummatii, ummatiii" - "Umatku, umatku, umatku" Dan, berakhirlah hidup manusia mulia yang memberi sinaran itu.

Kini, mampukah kita mencintai sepertinya? Allahumma sholli 'ala Muhammad wa baarik wa salim 'alaihi... Betapa cintanya Rasulullah kepada kita. Kirimkan kepada sahabat-sahabat muslim lainnya agar timbul kesedaran untuk mencintai Allah dan RasulNya, seperti Allah dan Rasulnya mencintai kita. Karena sesungguhnya selain daripada itu hanyalah fana belaka

--- Depicted from the book: Detik-detik Terakhir Kehidupan Rasulullah SAW

Even without ever meeting us, we still matter to him. Even with all the sins we commit, he still loves us. Even facing death, he still remembers each and everyone of us. Let not the pleasures of the world be a reason for us to disappoint him. Peace and blessings be upon him, Rasulullah, guide and example to the entire world.

Monday, June 18, 2007

I'm a freedom writer!

*joyful mood* (writing with background music: Salaam by Raihan & Miloud Zenasni)

Hello!! Hello people!! How's life going on? Hope you're in the best of health always, insyaAllah. It has been hectic this past 2,3 weeks filled with medical journals, report-writing, referencing (if you've done a thesis before, you'll know how HARD this is!), birthday-present-shopping, chapter editting, abstract constructing, scientific write-ups and living. Hah. I hope you feel suffocated enough just by reading that long list of things to do (note: almost done) cause it did almost actually strangled me. But anyway, enough exaggerations on my life, all is well for now. Don't you guys worry about me! Hehhe. Perasan tu orang risaukan saya.

Albeit the fact that I only just hyperbolized how hectic my life was, I'd like to admit that I managed to squeeze almost 2 hours of a movie last Friday into the chaos. I watched The Freedom Writers. Honestly, I was truly inspired!! I'm not going to elaborate on the technical aspects like who starred or how much the budget for the movie was or was the director famous or not or whether the movie actually hit box office. I have focused rather on the ideals of the movie itself. Oh, just so you'd know, this movie was based on a true story. Go google: The Freedom Writers.

A short summary on the movie; Erin Gruwell began teaching English at Wilson High School in California. Her students lived in a city that was racially divided, and her classroom reflected those divisions. Gruwell’s classroom, Room 203, had been a type of dumping ground for students with academic and disciplinary problems. In short, they were all children who were left behind. Her students knew the cost of gang violence and other social ills first hand, and Gruwell was able to reach them by finding literature that her students could relate to. Books like Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl and Zlata’s Diary: A Child’s Life in Sarajevo showed her students that there are other youngsters who had grown up in war zones and had faced similar prejudices. Her pupils, despite the system’s low expectations for them, eventually made it to college.


Alright peeps, so, this is me trying to imitate a professional movie critic:

Notion 1 - Despite the propaganda of the American Goverment trying to act like "leader" (yeah right!) of the free world and fighting against terrorism, their own people are living in terror against interracial gang warfare and racism. Rather than channelling resources into solving internal racial tensions and gang violance they waste money and man-force to a fabricated war against a so called group of terrorists. Perhap the Bush administration should really be thrown into the bushes.

Notion 2 - The Holocaust was hyped to an extra extra larger scale than it really was. No, I'm definitely not advocating at all what the Nazis did during the period of WWII. What they did was a blatant disregard and sheer disrespect to the dignity of the human race the world over. However, it should also be noted that the Roma, Soviet prisoner-of-wars, disabled people, political prisoners and several other groups of people were also slain, NOT JUST the Jews. So, for them to tune the limelight onto themselves merely for the sake of getting support to ambush and take hold of the Palestinian land is an act that should be annihilated and annuled by anyone who honestly have a right mind! What they are doing now is EXACTLY what have been done onto them once upon a time, a deed that they themselves strived to fight against. And whatever did the people of Palestine do to deserve such a punishment? (er.. punished for what anyway?)

Notion 3 - If you haven't read The Diary of Anne Frank.. well you should go and buy and read it at once! The mind of an inquisitive 13-year-old girl can really provide you with lessons of life (nevermind that she was a Jew, lessons are still lessons regardless of source) that will amaze even an intelligent full-grown adult . Believe me. Read this book.

Notion 4 - One should take into citation what Miep Gies (the Austrian woman who helped to hide the Frank family during the reign of the Nazis at the expanse of her own life) said in the movie, the scene goes as follows;

One of the students says to her, “I’ve never had a hero before, but you are my hero.”

Her answer is, “No, no, young man. No, I am not a hero.
I did what I had to do because it was the right thing to do. That is all. No, we are all ordinary people, but even an ordinary secretary, or housewife, or teenager can, within their own small ways, turn on a small light in a dark room. Yeah? I have read your letters and your teacher has been telling me many things about your experiences. You are the heroes. You are heroes every day.

But one should also remember that to DO the RIGHT thing, you first have to know what's right and what's wrong. Thus, it is crucial to make sure your goal in life is true to your believes and that you are on the right path, always and I repeat, ALWAYS.


Right. So, there it is, my thoughts during and after the movie. Some of it are facts, some of it are purely my humble musings. You may or may not acknowledge it, I give you that right. But I hope that it had at least triggered that gray matter of yours (note: to whoever is reading this lah, hehhe) to always see beyond face value and er... to go see this movie!!! Hehehehe. =P

Reminder for myself: Cakap/tulis/type senang, nak buat tak semudah itu, maka, berusahalah. Jangan duk goyang kaki dan berangan-angan lagi ye Cik Arifah oi!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Soup for the soul

This entry is quoted from Aneesa.

Dear friends. Change is possible. Have faith. But most importantly, work towards the truth!

Salaam Alaikum,

I was on my way back from the airport wallowing in my sniffles, when the DJ on the radio read a quote which I thought, CRIIIIKEEYY!! That’s spot on!!

It went somewhere along the lines of (paraphrasing in Malay, if sentence structure is incorrect, luruskan tia oleh kamu ah! Jazakallahu Khair) :

Tiada seseorang itu suci melainkan mempunyai masa silam penuh dengan noda; tiada seseorang itu dicemar dengan dosa pada masa ini melainkan mempunya masa dapan yang penuh iman dan taqwa.

One cannot be pure at present unless he had a darken past; one cannot be filled with sins at present unless he will have a brightened future. (or somewhere along those lines)

I forgot about my sniffles and put on a wide grin and said my thanks to Allah for giving me Hidayah. Alhamdulilah, we can’t say how grateful we are to Him.

There is hope my brothers and sisters, there is hope. I was once a very lost soul. Truly I was. But Allah came to my aid at my darkest hour and gave me Nur.

It happened to me, have faith, it can happen to you too. For some, it may take a while to realise the sweetness of Iman, for others, the realisation happens overnight.

But change is possible. And when it happens, insya-Allah, it will be the BEST of the BESTEST thing ever (next to slice bread) that could ever happen to you. :smile:

(27) Al-A'rad

وَيَقُولُ الَّذِينَ كَفَرُواْ لَوْلاَ أُنزِلَ عَلَيْهِ آيَةٌ مِّن رَّبِّهِ قُلْ إِنَّ اللّهَ يُضِلُّ مَن يَشَاءُ وَيَهْدِي إِلَيْهِ مَنْ أَنَابَ

Those who disbelieve say, ‘Why has a Sign not been sent down to him from his Lord?’ Say: ‘Allah misguides whoever He wills and guides to Himself all who turn to Him:

(28) Al-A'rad

الَّذِينَ آمَنُواْ وَتَطْمَئِنُّ قُلُوبُهُم بِذِكْرِ اللّهِ أَلاَ بِذِكْرِ اللّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ

Those who believe and whose hearts find peace in the remembrance of Allah. Only in the remembrance of Allah can the heart find peace.’

Monday, June 11, 2007

A prayer

"O’ Allah, Dear Love,
Soothe burning hearts with the coolness of faith,
Give peaceful slumber to the restless,
And serenity to disturbed souls,
Guide the confused ones to Your light,
And those that are astray to Your guidance,
Remove evil whispers from our hearts,
And replace them with light,
Destroy falsehood with truth,
Crush the evil plots of the Devil
With Your Army of Angels,
Remove from us misery, affliction, and anxiety

Saturday, June 02, 2007


When I look outside right into the depth of Nature and God, then I was happy, really happy. So long as I have that happiness here, the joy in nature, health and a lot more besides, all the while one has that, one can always recapture happiness. Riches can be lost, but then happiness in your own heart can only be veiled, and it will still bring you happiness again, as long as you live. As long as you can look fearlessly up into the heavens, as long as you know you are pure within, then you will still find happiness.

-Diary of Anne Frank-

I am Happy. Alhamdulillah.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

3 main responsibilities of being a Khalifah of Allah

  • To make ourselves good.

  • To help others (society) become good.

  • To make the physical world good (clean and beautiful).

  • Easy peasy lemon squesy. *wheeeeeeeee* Hehhe. Let us start our engines now (for those who have not yet started) and enter gear 1. May we have the chance to reach the highest gear, before the fuel tank's empty. Slow and steady.. but always moving forward towards the final destination.

    All the best Khalifahs! =)

    Saturday, May 26, 2007

    Invitation to the truth

    We often fear of that that we do not know of. That phrase should be given extra merit for the accuracy of correctness it brings with it.

    Once upon a time, I used to cringe when I hear the word da'wah. Once upon a time, to me at least, that word was a word equivelant to extremist trying to shove their believes down your throat. It was a word to be scared of. Perhaps there are some grains of truth in what I thought at that time base on what I saw (and that would bring a whole new story to it).

    Thus, when I found out the real meaning of da'wah, I was dumbfounded. Dak'wah is actually the arabic word for invite. All this while I was afraid of a harmless word! It might have been very amusing if not for the fact that it was actually an obligation to all Muslims.

    "Invite (all) to the Way of thy Lord with wisdom and beautiful preaching; and argue with them in ways that are best and most gracious: for thy Lord knoweth best, who have strayed from His Path, and who receive guidance." .:Sura An-Nahl 16:125:.

    An excerpt from wikipedia - Da'wah, from the Islamic perspective, is an open and general act of informing others about the message of Islam by carrying it, living it, and making it available to others through all positive and engaging means. It is not the mere act of telling someone about Islam, although dialogue, discussion, presentations, etc. are a part of dawah. It is the steady engagement of living the message, exemplifying the behaviors and providing answers and material when necessary.

    Which is very true indeed.

    To some people, dakwah might be a very hard thing to carry out. But then it comes back to how you interpret the word itself. And how you understand what Islam really is about. Islam is a religion of goodness, of beauty, of truth, of peace. So whatever that is good is Islam in essence, regardless of its roots.

    When you help a friend study - that is Islam. When you tell your brother you love him - that is Islam. When you cook for your family - that is Islam. When you feed your baby - that is Islam. When you pick up a nail in the middle of the road so that other people won't be harmed by it - that is Islam. When you maintain a clean surrounding of your cubicle at the office, or your table in your room, or your car - that is Islam. When write an article, a lyric, a blog entry and people is inspired and enlightened by what you wrote - that is Islam. When you treat a patient - that is Islam. When you say something, anything at all that can make a person smile - that is Islam.

    No matter how small the act is, as long as it is good and it is correct, it is Islam. And... *surprise*surprise* those acts are also considered as da'wah! This is because it shows to those around you how beautiful Islam is. See how easy it is to practice da'wah?

    So, come on people. Yes, you there. Let's all be Da'ees! =)

    Thursday, May 24, 2007

    Monday, May 21, 2007

    Seek and you shall find

    Seek knowledge.
    Seeking it purely for Allah's sake is fearing Him;
    Pursuing it is worshipping Him;
    Discussing it is remembering Him;
    Searching for it is Jihad;
    Imparting it to others is charity;
    And spending it for the benefit of the family is affinity.

    All this is because knowledge is the borderline
    Between the lawful and the unlawful;
    The light to the inroads to heaven;
    The friend in isolation;
    The companion in travel,
    The person to discuss with in solitude,
    The guide in happiness and sorrow;
    Bringer of peace to the enemy,
    And an ornament to the intimate friend.

    With the power of knowledge;
    Allah raises a people and makes them leaders of virtues
    Their footsteps and deeds are imitated
    And people conclude with their opinions
    The angels show anxiousness in their friendship
    And spread their wings for them

    Every animate and inanimate prays for their salvation;
    The fish and creatures in the sea,
    The animals and beasts on the land,
    All ask for repentance for the learned.

    This is so because knowledge is equivalent to praying through the night. Knowledge brings one closer to his relative and verses him with the facts of the lawful and the unlawful. Knowledge remains the leader while actions remain the followers. It inspires the fortunate and deprives the wicked.

    - Prophet Muhammad (salAllahu alayhi wasalam)
    [reported by Mu'adh Ibn Jabal from Ihya ulumud-Deen - Abu Hamid al-Ghazali]

    Tuesday, May 15, 2007


    Thehehe. Psychiatry it is then?!
    If you're pursuing a specialty in medicine, go here.

    Rank Specialty Score
    1 psychiatry 42
    2 radiology 41
    3 gastroenterology 41
    4 endocrinology 40
    5 med oncology 40
    6 dermatology 40
    7 nuclear med 40
    8 pediatrics 39
    9 urology 39
    10 general internal med 39
    11 colon & rectal surgery 38
    12 radiation oncology 38
    13 neurosurgery 38
    14 obstetrics/gynecology 38
    15 physical med & rehabilitation 38
    16 pathology 37
    17 orthopaedic surgery 37
    18 preventive med 37
    19 rheumatology 37
    20 infectious disease 37
    21 family practice 37
    22 emergency med 37
    23 allergy & immunology 36
    24 hematology 36
    25 cardiology 36
    26 nephrology 36
    27 occupational med 36
    28 general surgery 36
    29 neurology 36
    30 plastic surgery 36
    31 thoracic surgery 35
    32 aerospace med 35
    33 anesthesiology 35
    34 pulmonology 34
    35 ophthalmology 33
    36 otolaryngology 32

    Sunday, May 13, 2007

    Hearts bonded; with the grace of the Almighty

    Tranquility.. felt in the midst of serene surroundings and amicable friends.

    Last weekend, under the ambiguous watchful eyes of the rustling trees and the cool melody of the flowing stream of Sungai Tekala, 30 souls from two very different academic institution and various fields were brought together to delight in the magnificient beauty of God's creation.

    Ta'aruf session

    Islam is the way of life. A theme that brings with it such a deeply profound meaning, yet can only be comprehended by those whose heart is opened to see beyond what can only be accepted by the logical mind.

    Ensembling our tent with my groupmates

    The silent strong pact that was made between hearts and souls can only be aprised by those engaged in the circle itself.

    A picture paints a thousand words, they say. May the pictures above and below paint what is indescribable even by a million words. This blogger is penning off for now. Have a good day readers!

    Jungle trekking: going up!

    Jungle trekking: going down...

    The base of a gigantic tree which engulfed almost half of the group. It's soaring bulky trunk below.

    Background: Waterfall of Sungai Tekala

    Left: This blogger with the son of a senior naqibah (leader). She's doing her Masters. Despite working, busy with studies and being married with a kid, she still allocates time to be in the company of people that reminds her of the Oft-loving and Most Merciful. Bestowed me with a new perspective in life, I must say. =)

    Right: Meals on a tray in accordance with the sunnah of the Prophet Muhammad (p.b.u.h.)

    With humbleness, we prostrate before You. Grant us calmness in calamity. Joy behind troubles.
    Hope above despair. Amin.

    The strongest bond of faith is when we meet, we get to know,
    we love and we depart... because of Allah.
    Kekalkan kemesraan antara hati-hati ini, Ya Allah.

    Tuesday, April 24, 2007

    "..and whoever saves the life of one person,
    it shall be as if he had saved the life of all mankind"
    (Qur'an 5:32)

    And that, my friend, is why we became doctors.

    Sunday, April 22, 2007

    An intuition

    Don't try to fix people.
    Enjoy them!

    Everyone of us is unique in our own way. =)

    Friday, April 20, 2007


    (extracted from nemo's)

    You know medschool is driving you crazy and you're just too far gone you can't turn back and run when..
    1. ABC is no longer as easy and you thought it was
    2. Someone asks you where can they find AAA for the remote control and you answer "Autopsy."
    3. DIC (dick?) is not just a slang for the male external reproductive organ
    4. You wouldn't accept a million when asked to sit on a stool
    5. S.O.B stands for shortness of breath and is not rude
    6. You know Guillain-Barre is not a chocolate
    7. And neither is Henoch-Schönlain an ice cream
    8. You possess more than 3 labcoats
    9. More than 3 scrubs (2 of which are tailored. haha!)
    10. And at least 3 stethoscopes (with different colours and designs), also some syringes with needles, latex gloves, sterile cottons, a bottle of alcohol and a worn out teddy bear
    11. You wonder if Netter ever runs out of colours and neurotransmitters
    12. You look at anatomists with awe and wonder
    13. At surgeons with drools
    14. You have a designated seat in every lecture
    15. You get pissed off when someone else is in your seat
    16. You also have a favourite seat in the library
    17. You just leave when someone else is in your seat and then come back later to check
    18. You never miss a lecture even if you know you'll end up sleeping
    19. You can spend a significant amount of time in the toilet and conduct a gross check of your you know what
    20. Someone brings onto the table a frothy mango drink served in a jar and you think 'pulmonology' and puke
    21. But you can discuss gross anatomy over meals just like that!
    22. You have literally held a heart in your hand (so you're now apathetic)
    23. You don't knock, but you percuss and you don't touch/feel, but you palpate
    24. You can't wait for a chance to do rectal exam
    25. You tend to end everything bad with -itis (or -oma)
    26. You want to cure cancer
    27. It stresses you out when you know you can't
    28. When you use phrases like "we bypassed a few train stations" instead of "skipped a few train stations
    29. When you sit on a train and you nudge your friend to check out that guy's tics when he clearly has better assets to be checked out
    30. When you think kissing is to get yourself inflicted with herpes simplex
    31. When your mother, sisters or aunts ask you about their periods etc, instead of the opposite a few years ago
    32. You dont notice the already too familiar strong smell of antiseptics in the hospital,not to mention the wards, paint and toilets
    33. The real human skull in the ADH (Anatomy Dissection Hall) isnt freaky anymore
    34. PDAs dont seem too cool either (and you'd be sorry rather than shocked to hear your rich friend's child has one)
    35. People dont get your jokes but other medic students roll over laughing!
    36. You openly talk about some things that might be inappropriate at inappropriate times and it doesn't bother you and your colleague-friends
    37. You laugh about the diagnosis on you that your friends make after a lecture until you start to wonder if it's true.
    38. You talk about medicine and your engineer sister/brother/friend doesnt understand a word you're saying under those medical terms.
    39. You watch ER , Strong Medicine, Scrubs, House, Grey's etc and you start to hear the medical cases, diagnosis and treatment very intently so as not to miss a word (heck you even discuss them with your friends, in between the plot- dont tell me you dont!!)
    40. You diagnosed yourself after a couple of lectures on Cushing's Syndrome and you went to meet the lecturer right after only to be confirmed of your worries, but it turned out you have PCOS since they have the same clinical ceatures (it happened to on of my classmates!)
    Why do you think they call it madmedschool anyway. List is open for extension. Knock yourselves out. ;)

    Wednesday, April 18, 2007

    There were always in me...

    There were always in me, two women at least,
    one woman desperate and bewildered,
    who felt she was drowning and another who
    would leap into a scene, as upon a stage,
    conceal her true emotions because they
    were weaknesses, helplessness, despair,
    and present to the world only a smile,
    an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.

    - Anais Nin

    Tuesday, April 17, 2007

    Housemates of the year award

    Ayu: the audibly high-sounding ear-piercing boombox.

    It has been almost 9 years of a head-splitting relationship. But I can never ask for a more splendid sidekick. *hugs*

    Mama: the momma of the house.

    Your guts can be quite an intimidation to others. It annoys me. It makes it all the more easier to adore you. *wink*

    Munie: the jolly-good-fella.

    Your insight sometimes suprises me. Your smile and laughter is infectious. And dude, I have to say this, you do have a sexy bod. Ngahahaha. =P

    Uya: the goody-two-shoes.

    True to her description, uya is a girl with the biggest heart I have ever known. Sometimes girl, you think too much of others, you forget to think of yourself. But there are times... well that you can refer to her roomie. I rest my case. Hehhe. (",)

    Mimi: the sweetest one of all aka my roomie.

    The person who sat beside me and listened to my ugly ugly thoughts, and still love me the same. This is that someone who said "Tell me everything. No matter what you tell me, I won't change my view of you I promise. Because --- is not my friend. You are," and gave me the courage to stand up to my beliefs. Thank you. =)

    Wanny: the make up artist.

    The beauty queen of the house. There's a slight drawback though, she's immune to slapsticks to the point where the others sometimes feel like strangling her. Muahahaha. =P

    Wawa: the anti-social.

    Hahaha. Hehehe. Huhuhu. Go and get married already!! =P

    Love you guys to bits.

    Monday, April 16, 2007

    My baby =)

    My 1G iPod shuffle.

    I wish! Well, it is a white mp3 player with a 1G space of memory. But sadly, it is NOT an iPod shuffle. Hehhe. I wanted to post a picture of my new baby but I can't find any on the net and my mum who's in London right now is having fun with my digital camera. So I guess you have to improvise your imagination of this iPod into my new mp3 player.

    Yeah, yeah. I have to put this into writing: the player (I mean the real one) is courtesy of my ever dearest dad. Thank you Abah. Love you. *smooches*

    Now, I have a decoder to help me memorize scribes, something to listen to when I'm bored and a companion to keep me company. What a gain!

    Saturday, April 14, 2007

    Some food for thoughts

    An understanding beyond cognizance:
    • People who are loud are those whose childhood life are unconcluded, who did not get the attention that is necessitate by the nature they're born with.
    • Those who seem quite but at peace with themselves.. they're the ones born into a devotedly loving family.

    Friday, April 13, 2007

    Yesterday and today!

    12/04/2007 : Happy 22nd anniversary Ibu and Abah!
    May your life together be filled with love and hapiness always.
    I love you.

    Happy Birthday dearest friend!
    The friendship has always been like eating candy. Yumm yumm.
    (That's me and Sofi 3 years back, jeez, I've put on A LOT of weight. =P)

    Tuesday, April 10, 2007

    Just my two cents

    Have you ever wished that you have the ability to read people's mind. Because then everytime you have to confront them, you don't have to waste half your time guessing what they're thinking and the other half anticipating what they think of you. But then again why care about what people think of you when it doesn't bring any benediction to the profound greatness of your life?

    But wait.

    What is it about people that makes it so hard to capture their very essence. To penetrate into the deepest thoughts that linger in their very own ingenuity? To discern between their truest emotions and their incapicated feelings; which they thrust upon your very being that you often allow yourself to indulge in them until it's too late for you to realize that it is not really what they feel inside.

    Think about it.

    How many times have you misunderstood a friend's harmless jesting gesture as a stab at your own inadequacy? How many times have a child's mess you regard as a test to your supreme serenity when in fact with the purest of heart all the child wanted to do was help? Remember the countless times you thought your parents were wrong and they were indeed right all along? What about the inconsistent thoughts that your brother might be a serial killer because he likes to bully you when in reality he just doesn't have the capability to relate his inner self to those he loves most? Ok, I might be overdoing that last point.

    But still.

    So please, the next time you're pissed.. stop and think what it's all really about before you bash someone's head off.

    So long! =)

    Sunday, April 01, 2007

    A reminder: for myself

    "And He provides for him sources he never could imagine.
    And if anyone puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is Allah for him.
    For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose:
    verily, for all things has Allah appointed due proportion."
    (Al Talaq; 3)

    Trust Allah the most. For He knows everything. Literally.

    Wednesday, March 28, 2007

    Pursuit of happyness

    "Happiness can grow in any soil, live in any condition.
    It defies environment.
    It comes from within;
    it is a revelation of the depths of inner life
    as light and heat proclaim the sun from which they radiate.

    Happiness consist not of having, but of being;
    not of possessing, but of enjoying.
    It is the warm glow of the heart at peace with itself.
    Happiness is the soul’s joy in the possession of intangible.

    Happiness is paradoxical;
    it may coexist with total sorrow and poverty.
    It is the gladness of the heart, rising superior to all condition.

    Saturday, March 24, 2007

    Unconditional love

    "Anak hanya belajar menghargai kasih sayang ibu bapanya apabila akal sudah hidup di kepala, namun ibu bapa sudah menyayangi anak sebelum lahir ia ke dunia." -Saifulislam.Com-

    A line from an article by Ustaz Hasrizal in one of his entries triggered me to write my entry for today. Simple yet meaningfully deep. It carries a similitude of most child-parents status quo in the present-day. Of course some of us might argue with that point, but then again coming back to my own experience, I remain affixed to my stand.

    If you're a regular here, you might have read the entry I wrote on my dad awhile ago, which summarizes in short yet precisely the character of Abah. An uncluttered yet complex man. Extremely wise yet nitwitted. Funny and playful but stern. A kind man though a bit atrocious at times. A mixture of everything. An oxymoronic man, if this term ever exist. Which makes it an effortless effort to love but dislike him at the same time.

    My mum, however, well that's another story to tell. She's the disciplinarian of the family. I used to be so scared of her, even if it was MY daring deliquency in the first place that made her chase me around the house with a hanger or a rotan. The weird thing is, regardless of how terrified I was of her, I've always wanted to please her. I remembered locking myself in the kitchen and washing all the dirty dishes in the sink so that I can suprise her. Any of my outstanding performances in school be it academic wise or extra-curricular activities, she'll be the first to know. She's the kind of person that puts other people on edge, making them go the extra mile, putting extra work to achieve the highest of their capability. In many ways than not, I am what I am now because of her. And eventhough it's hard to hear it from you, deep in my heart I know your love for your children reachest far beyond anything anyone on this earth can ever imagine. I love you, Ibu.

    I have always been a difficult child. Being the first and only child for more than 4 years drifted me to become quite the challenge in the bridge towards my teenage years. I can't even count how many times I threatened to run away just because I was pissed by such stupid and unacceptable reasons. Or throw hysterical tantrums to get what I wanted. Oh, the foolishness of the fool can never be understood by the fool herself. I was selfish and proud but witless.

    They say wisdom comes with age. I vouch to that. In retrospect, I realize I was always full of anger and reproach of those around me, of the people that loved (and still do) me the most. To me, nothing then was ever good enough. No one understood me. I was dead wrong.

    So, Ibu, Abah, I'm sorry for all the misbehaves and tantrums, all the verbal attacks and lazziness, all the stupidity and self-centredness, everything in the package. I know I was difficult and to tell you the truth, I think I always will be. Hehhe. But THANK YOU, for always trying to give me the best, for all the care and guidance. Thank you for your unconditional love.

    I am grateful for having the greatest parents one could ever ask for.

    For I am blessed.

    Wednesday, March 21, 2007

    There's always a first time for everything

    My first chocolate cake. =)

    Euphoria on her face:
    "Sedap lah cake ni kakak!"

    I have never baked before. I can cook dishes and do puddings (walaupun malas juga lah sebenarnya =D), but never ventured into cakes and cookies yet. I know, I know, the cake up there does not look that delicious to begin with but trust me its finger-licking-good! I have my siblings to testify to that. Hehhe. Oh, and my dads' remark was "Macam cake secret recipe!!". Alhamdulillah. I'm proud that I braved myself to take the first step into the baking terrene.

    It's too bad my number one chef (read: my ibu) is not at home to comment on it, she's in Penang for a certain particular meeting. I did call her though before takeoff just to make sure everything's right. Tak pernah guna oven on my own before percaya tak? Kelakar sungguh saya ni. She bid me good luck sambil menggelakkan saya. I think Mamasarah and Drroza will be laughing their hearts out reading this entry too.

    Tomorrow will be dish day pulak. I'm thinking of Nasi Goreng Thai or any kind of fried rice, lets see how it goes. Six weeks of holidays will be seeing my family getting bulat-er by my cookings, itupun if my rajin mood berkekalan. Hehhe. Wish me luck!

    Advert: Arifah will make a good future wife. *snorts out laughter*

    Tuesday, March 20, 2007

    Of simple-mindedness

    WARNING: Don't read this if you have anything better to do!

    It's 12.15 am and my eyes are still in their active trance. Might be due to the fact that I had a 3-hour-long "nap" petang tadi kut. Hehhe. Can't help it. My biological clock dah tunggang terbalik since the exams last week. Biasalah time-time periksa tidur tak menentu, tidur lepas subuh bangun tengahari buta, tidur pukul 10 pm bangun pukul 2 am tak tidur dah sampai malam berikutnya. Sesuka hati jek. Aiyoo. Have to stop this bad habit of sleeping at unappropriate hours, nanti kene parkinsons disease (ye ke? nyehnyeh..) karang baru tau.

    Anyway, to be honest I'm actually the morning type of person. Kalau tak sebab exam (semua nak salahkan exam kan??), my sleeping schedule most of the time memang cun-cun je. Sleep around 11.30 pm, wake up at 5.30 am lah paling-paling lewat pun. It's nice having the peace and quiet all to yourself. You don't have to worry about people peeping into your private routines, although its not that private pun. There's a big difference between sleeping early, waking up early and sleeping late, waking up late. Arifah thinks and believes that your brain process thoughts and ideas faster when you sleep early and rise when the day is still young. There's something magical about the dewy quiet moments of the dawn, I tell you!

    You might have noticed by my third paragraph that I am literally writing nonsense. Sebenarnya memang tak ada idea langsung nak tulis apa. All my bernas ideas dah gone with the wind. Lepas tu, my glossary's worth right now are equivalent to that of junks and jargons. Rojak-rojak, macam-macam ada. Hehhe. Well, saja nak cuba-cuba benda baru once in awhile.

    Ok. Rasanya dah puas mengarut-ngarut buat masa ni. Sekian saja ketemu kita di lain hari. Roger and out.

    Ps: I did warn you ahead didn't I? Lol. =D

    Friday, March 16, 2007

    I can bend and not break

    (from a dear friend's blog)

    I believe-
    that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

    I believe-
    that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

    I believe-
    that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

    I believe-
    that you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.

    I believe-
    that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

    I believe-
    that we are responsible for our actions, no matter how we justify it.

    I believe-
    that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

    I believe-
    that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

    I believe-
    that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

    I believe-
    that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

    I believe-
    that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

    I believe-
    that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

    I believe-
    that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

    I believe-
    that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

    I believe-
    that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

    I believe-
    that everyone deserves a chance to be better in every way they can be..

    To those who stood by me when it really mattered and to those who hadn't but still matter.. thank you for a being a part of me. I love you guys. =)

    Saturday, March 10, 2007

    A quick stop.

    "The word 'shams' (sun) is feminine, and 'qamar' (moon) is masculine. The sun burns itself out to give light and life to everything around, and the moon is muneer, meaning it reflects the light. Within itself it has no light; it radiates the brilliance of the sun. So when we shine as men, the implication is that we are reflecting the glorious light of our women. May Allah swt be pleased with them."

    -Sheikh Abdullah Adhami-

    Subhanallah. =)

    Tuesday, March 06, 2007

    On Break

    Due to a certain MAJOR EXAM, I will be on hiatus until further notice.

    Friends, families, foes and those who intentionally/unintentionally stumble upon my blog.. do pray for my success, InsyaAllah.

    *quickly dugs back into a topic on respiratory inflammatory disorder*

    Thursday, March 01, 2007

    Thy supreme counsel is thy Lord

    Who does greater evil than he who is reminded of the signs of the Lord, then turns away from them?
    - Quran 32:22

    Friday, February 23, 2007


    A myriad of colours
    Drench on a tarp of pallid rag

    A jubilant mortal
    Too content with the present
    Too gay about the past
    But the future holds an unforeseen truth

    The curtain of darkness
    Drapes around an unexpected soul
    And we are left to wonder
    Will it be us tomorrow?

    O Allah, give her strength and serenity to face this tribulation.

    Wednesday, February 21, 2007

    I've been tagged!

    I actually wanted to write something on my visit to the paediatric institute this morning but I couldn't find the words to describe my emotion. So, I have resorted to rise up to the challenge of this tagging business. Mama Sarah notty ye, report dekat Mynn. Ngehehe. Anyway, I'm not gonna tag anyone after this. Kesian orang yang kena tag. Hehhe. Here's to all the weirdness the world over! =D

    6 Weird Things About Arifah

    1. I have a very very very sweet tooth. I love chocolates. Although you can not have too much of them else you'll turn into a walking hippo (you get the picture). Now I'm asking myself why am I talking about chocolates pulak tibe-tibe ni. Semua orang makan chocolate, so where's the peculiarity in it? Well, how about eating raw milo + susu pekat manis, gaul dengan sebati, then you eat the ingredients the way anyone eat rice with chicken curry, and making it a habit? Hehhe. Ok, ok it's not exactly a habit but I do it everytime I feel like eating chocolates and there're not any around to satisfy my bonbon lust.

    2. I have a small cute dark blue kancil. My dad bought it for me. Lucky me for being the first-born. But he did warned me to buy him a huge BMW when I get my first paycheck one day. Anyway, that's beside the point. The main crux here is that I have a weird habit of turning on the headlights everytime (well almost) I enter the car. I don't know why. I can assure you however that what I'm telling you is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth because I have recieved so many chides and stares when I when I'm on the road or when I stop at the petrol station for a re-fill due to this penchant of mine.

    3. Talking about my car, I have another weird (or perhaps dangerous) habit of driving more than 100 kmph when I'm happy. People drive fast either because they're furious or just because they're plain crazy. I drive fast because I'm happy. Although most of the time I drive fast for no apparent reasons. Since I'm confessing this here, I really do hope no traffic police officer will ever come across my blog. Oh, and dear readers, don't you dare report me!

    4. This one is about one of my favourite food. I don't really like veggies. I can almost say I hate them but I have this unexplained craving for brocollies. I can gobble down a huge bowl of these pretty little greeneries without batting my eyes. Of course this IS an exaggeration. But roughly I can say that if I don't get chocolates, brocollies are enough for me. So send me a bunch for (I was going to type Christmas, hehhe) my birthday.

    5. I am an easy sleeper. What I mean to say is that I don't take long to fall asleep after my head has safely landed on the pillow. But before I get into the first stage of sleep, I will create my own imaginary 'world' in my head where in it I am a princess or a superhero trying to save the universe. A specific 'world' can last for more than a week's sleep. Sometimes it becomes so exciting that I can't wait to go to bed just so that I can continue what I imagined the night before. SUPER weird.

    6. Weird thing is I can't think of the last weird thing about me. Hehhe.

    End of story. Laugh if you want. I'm just being honest.

    Monday, February 19, 2007

    Keep moving..

    "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength"

    At this very moment, I have two close friends who're going through a rough time. Both of their fathers had just undergone brain tumour surgery.

    Nothing I say (or write) will take any of your pain or worries away. But just remember that my prayers are with you and your families. I'll be around if you need me, as a friend, as someone to talk to, as a shoulder to lean on. I love you both.

    May Allah grant them and their loved ones health and serenity.

    Savage Garden: Two beds and a coffee machine

    And she takes another step
    Slowly she opens the door
    Check that he is sleeping
    Pick up all the broken glass
    And furniture on the floor

    Been up half the night screaming
    Now it's time to get away
    Pack up the kids in the car
    Another bruise to try and hide
    Another alibi to write

    Another ditch in the road
    You keep moving
    Another stop sign
    You keep moving on

    And the years go by so fast
    Wonder how I ever made it through
    And there are children to think of
    Baby's asleep in the back seat

    Wonder how they'll ever make it
    Through this living nightmare
    But the mind is an amazing thing
    Full of candy dreams and new toys

    And another cheap hotel
    Two beds and a coffee machine
    But there are groceries to buy
    And she knows she'll have to go home

    Another ditch in the road
    You keep moving
    Another stop sign
    You keep moving on
    And the years go by so fast

    Wonder how I ever made it through
    Another bruise to try and hide
    Another alibi to write
    Another lonely highway in the black of night

    There's hope in the darkness
    I know you're gonna make it
    Another ditch in the road
    Keep moving

    Another stop sign
    You keep moving on
    And the years go by so fast
    Silent fortress built to last
    Wonder how I ever made it