It feels like Deja Vu

Sometimes I just wish I could turn back time and erase every mistake I did, every hurtful word I have said, every bad choice I have made.

I keep telling myself that I am strong.

But everyone wants to feel like someone cares.

And everyone wants to know they're not alone.

Real life doctor

This entry will be alternating between Malay, English and Manglish. Kalau rasa tak suka baca bahasa campur aduk dalam satu entry, sila jangan proceed ye.

It has been more than 5 months. 5 months of life revolving around me but me having no life. It you get what I mean. 

Saya wonder, bila orang awam (ie mereka yang pekerjaannya tak terlibat dalam bidang perubatan seperti nurse, dietician, pharmacist, even cleaner dekat hospital) tengok doktor, apa yang mereka fikirkan? Gah, glamour, gaji besar, hidup senang? 

The reality is, we work like slaves. And if we don't have family members (thank you husband, family and in-laws!) who understand the hecticness of our job, the tiredness at the end of the day, the feeling of wanting to quit and do something else but still persisting because responsible adults don't quit half way - I don't think I could have even completed even a month of housemanship.