To each his own

What is it about people wanting to be recognized as a distinctive representative of their very own personality. In the name of creating a claimed identity?

Given a situation where a person is battered because he speaks his mind and in the process builds up public resentment, thus he retorts back saying he was just being himself, is anything wrong with that? Is he at fault just because he was being bluntly honest or is he in error because he yanked bitterness from those around him?

Occayy. I'm twisted by my own reasoning here. Leave the matter be. Chow~

Ps: Right. Something's wrong with my limbic system. Two posts in a day? I'm having to many personal conflicts at one time. Someone give me one huge packet of Maltesers please! I need chocolatesssssssss right now.

Emotion

A whimsical attack on the human race. People are unreliable. Everybody lies. Somehow, Dr Gregory House's dogma has become my believe.

I realize I'm becoming somewhat easily annoyed by the people around me. I do have a short temper, I admit to that but then I cool down again quickly. Lately however, my capibility to stupefy my own infuriation has diminished. Sekali marah, menjadi-jadi kemarahan.

O Allah, give me composure, give me patience, give me the endurence to control my self, to always put other peoples' feelings before my own. Give me stregth.

Finding Me

Hensel said to Gratel
Let us drop these bread crumbs
So that together we can find our way home
Because losing our way would be the most cruelest thing

Last year I lost my way
And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate
But losing your reason for the journey is a fate more cruel
The journey was my life time

Sometimes I travel alone
Sometimes there are others who took the wheel
And took my heart
But when the destination is reached
It wasn't me who arrived
Twasn't me at all

And once you lose yourself you have two choices
Find the person you used to be
Or loose that person completely
Because sometimes you have to step outside the person you've been
And remember the person you are meant to be

The person you are...

A stab right at the heart

"Kakak, balik rumah tak esok?"

"Balik kut,knape?rindu kat kakak ke?hehhe"

"A ah.Hehhe."

A text conversation between me and my youngest sister yesterday brought a cheery glow into the depth of my existence for that split of a second. Hehhe. Bak kate someone close to me, rasa cucuk-cucuk dekat hati. =)

Some people will probably shrug it off as an insignificant break from the norm, well it actually is. My family is not the kind yang akan say to each other words of kasih sayang. Although lately, I've been trying to instill that value sikit-sikit. Ngehngeh. Looks like my usaha dah mula membuahkan hasilnya.


Reminds me of a line from Westlife's Flying Without Wings...


Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary nights
You'll find it in the words of others
a simple line can make you laugh or cry
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
and when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So impossible
as they may seem
You've got to fight
for every dream
'cause who's to know
which one you let go
would've made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
At any given time or place
It's the little things that only I know

Those are the things that make your mind
And it's like flying without wings
'Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins
and you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

It's been awhile

"Like the elephant, we are unconscious of our own strength. When it comes to understanding the power we have to make a difference in our own lives, we might as well be asleep. If you want to make your dreams come true, wake up. Wake up to your own strength. Wake up to the role you play in your own destiny. Wake up to the power you have to choose what you think, do, and say."

My passion for writing has dwindled into a mere lump of unidentified matter for the past few months. Don't ask me how or why? I've been trying to figure it out myself.

Suddenly, karma took an unexpected turn on me and fortune smiled upon me. Hehhe. To make it short, Alhamdulillah, my 'house' at my college now has total access to the cyberworld. Kami berlapan berkongsi ringgit malaysia untuk beli router for our house.

So, expect me to write frequently from today, InsyaAllah. Saya cuba. And I'll be writing more in Malay sekarang. Azam tahun baru, use more Malay words in blog. =)

My sincerest apology especially to my fellow bloggers yang sudah lama mengenali saya di alam blogging ini. I feel like I've been ignoring you guys. Sorry again. Hehhehehhe (guilty laugh). I'll try to update as often as I can from this moment on.

Need to go and pray. Peace.