Keindahan Islam terletak pada akhlak ummatnya.

Allah.. terlalu lama hati ini tidak mencoretkan sesuatu di ceruk kecil ini. Moga Allah terima niat kerdil saya agar penulisan yang tak seberapa ini dipandangNya sebagai amal soleh di sana kelak.

Betapa saya sedar lemahnya diri dalam menjalani jalan yang penuh simpang siur ini. Jalan yang sukar penuh berduri tapi pada hakikatnya amat manis bagi mereka yang mengerti erti 'pengorbanan' yang sebenar.

Terkadang dek kerana hati yang penuh noda-noda hitam, perasaan sombong diri dan takabur mudah saja meresap masuk. Gunung nan tinggi terasa mudah didaki dengan kaki sendiri, langit terasa dekat digapai dengan tangan sendiri. Semuanya atas usaha sendiri. Aku lah yang hebat.. aku lah yang baik.. aku lah yang paling banyak berkorban.. Aduh, semuanya aku, aku, aku!! Habis, siapa yang menciptakan kaki dan tangan itu? Siapa yang memberi kudrat untuk memanjat gunung itu? Dan sesungguhnya, siapa yang memberi hati untuk merasai perasaan serta keinginan yang kuat sehingga boleh memanjat dan menggapai segala-galanya, kalau bukan Dia Sang Pencipta yang Maha Hebat?!

Astagfirullah. Astagfirullah. Astagfirullah.

Buat mereka yang terlalu istimewa buat diri saya (Abang, Ibu, Abah, Kak If, Tiqah, Afiq, close families, Ikhwah Akhwat and close friends serta semua yang mengenali diri ini, especially those who are reading this - I just had a strong feeling to put your names down), maafkan saya kerana terlalu banyak cacat dan celanya akhlak yang dipamerkan. Sedangkan akhlak itulah cerminan kepada utuhnya keimanan serta hubungan saya dengan Sang Ilah di Langit sana. Akhlak itulah petunjuk kepada tahap kekuatan semangat saya dalam menjalani apa yang saya dakwahkan.

Moga Allah bantu saya untuk mencantikkan lagi akhlak dan layanan saya terhadap mereka yang saya sayangi kerana Allah. Amin, Ya Rabb Al-Amin.

Terlalu banyak tarbiyah yang ingin Allah ajarkan pada kita melalui peristiwa-peristiwa yang Dia sendiri susunkan untuk kita sebenarnya. Cuma kita sahaja yang perlu memilih untuk belajar dari kesilapan itu atau terus-menurus membiarkan diri kita berada di dalam kegelapan jahiliyyah.

Benarlah, keindahan Islam itu terletak pada akhlak ummatnya!

Can I make a difference?

I am at the centre of a mount, bearing my soul to the world. My head spinning and spinning and spinning around. There seem to be only darkness around me and only the music of chaos that my ears can hear. It feels like my fellow humans are condemned to a lifetime of sufferings.

The strong always pushing down the meek and dainty, always wanting to be on top, always afraid of giving what they believe is theirs to keep. Those below always in a perpetual state of doom and sorrow, where hope to them is not something to hold on to.

I am trying.. I am trying..

"And never give up hope of Allah's soothing Mercy:
Truly no one despairs of Allah's soothing Mercy
except those who have no faith."
(12:87)

Qalamullah

Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) said: 'When a man dies and his relatives are busy in funeral, there stands an extremely handsome man by his head. When the dead body is shrouded, that man gets in between the shroud and the chest of the deceased.

Thereafter he turns to his dead companion and says, 'I am the Qur'an, which you used to read, sometimes in a loud voice and sometimes in a low voice. Do not worry. After the interrogation of Munkar and Naker, you will have no grief.'

When the interrogation is over, the handsome man arranges for him from Al-Mala'ul A'laa (the angels in Heaven) silk bedding filled with musk.

Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) said: 'On the Day of Judgement, before Allah, no other Intercessor will have a greater status than the Qur'an, neither a Prophet nor an angel.'

Lets all read lots and lots of the Quran! Especially on this blessed month. =)

Strength comes from within!

Have you ever tried walking hundreds of miles in the middle of the desert, after being deserted by your own kin, towards a village. Your heart carried a burden so heavy that made the mountains cried, hardships after hardships, misfortunes following one another. Would you still have hope?

Hope that the community you were moving towards to would welcome you with open arms and greet the truth you brought with a thirst of a homeless man.

And what if when you were there, you were drench with cruel and spiteful chants, run down by little children throwing sticks and rocks at you, when in your deepest of hearts all you want was for them to be saved from a never-ending torment of burning hot inferno.

Would you still hope for the best and pray that the next generation would be better? Or would you have just given up?

Strength comes from Allah. From a believe that nothing can stop the good getting to you if God wants it for you, nothing can save you from harm if God knows that it is indeed the best for you.

To believe that in the face of all difficulties, all doors will be opened to those who submit themselves to Allah - that is the only solution that can provide you with peace, comfort, happiness and blessings in this world and the hereafter.

Note to self: You don't always get what you want. Learn to be thankful with what you already have!

Love is...

Love is more than just small or big gestures showing how much we care. Love is more than just saying sweet words to make the people we love feel happy. Love is more than about saying I love you.

Love is about wanting, praying and working for eternal bliss for your loved ones.

My ukhtis showed me this. My syuyukhs thought me this. But most importantly My Dearest, the person who worried about my faith, prayed for my hereafter and loved me more than he loved himself even when I was not even born yet, my beloved prophet Rasulullah s.a.w.

Eternal bliss - kebahagiaan di akhirat. Akhirat, where there is no end.

Have I worked hard enough and sacrificed everything I can so that the people I love can know eternal bliss in the hereafter? I am scared to answer the question.

When your soul feels dark and your heart feels hard, pray to Allah. So that He may cleanse and purify them. Jangan sampai terkunci mati!

Allah membersihkan siapa yang dikehendakiNya.
Dan Allah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengetahui
(24:21)