A stab right at the heart

"Kakak, balik rumah tak esok?"

"Balik kut,knape?rindu kat kakak ke?hehhe"

"A ah.Hehhe."

A text conversation between me and my youngest sister yesterday brought a cheery glow into the depth of my existence for that split of a second. Hehhe. Bak kate someone close to me, rasa cucuk-cucuk dekat hati. =)

Some people will probably shrug it off as an insignificant break from the norm, well it actually is. My family is not the kind yang akan say to each other words of kasih sayang. Although lately, I've been trying to instill that value sikit-sikit. Ngehngeh. Looks like my usaha dah mula membuahkan hasilnya.


Reminds me of a line from Westlife's Flying Without Wings...


Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary nights
You'll find it in the words of others
a simple line can make you laugh or cry
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
and when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So impossible
as they may seem
You've got to fight
for every dream
'cause who's to know
which one you let go
would've made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
At any given time or place
It's the little things that only I know

Those are the things that make your mind
And it's like flying without wings
'Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins
and you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

It's been awhile

"Like the elephant, we are unconscious of our own strength. When it comes to understanding the power we have to make a difference in our own lives, we might as well be asleep. If you want to make your dreams come true, wake up. Wake up to your own strength. Wake up to the role you play in your own destiny. Wake up to the power you have to choose what you think, do, and say."

My passion for writing has dwindled into a mere lump of unidentified matter for the past few months. Don't ask me how or why? I've been trying to figure it out myself.

Suddenly, karma took an unexpected turn on me and fortune smiled upon me. Hehhe. To make it short, Alhamdulillah, my 'house' at my college now has total access to the cyberworld. Kami berlapan berkongsi ringgit malaysia untuk beli router for our house.

So, expect me to write frequently from today, InsyaAllah. Saya cuba. And I'll be writing more in Malay sekarang. Azam tahun baru, use more Malay words in blog. =)

My sincerest apology especially to my fellow bloggers yang sudah lama mengenali saya di alam blogging ini. I feel like I've been ignoring you guys. Sorry again. Hehhehehhe (guilty laugh). I'll try to update as often as I can from this moment on.

Need to go and pray. Peace.

A reflection of thyself

It's a really weird feeling when you're told you have a certain quality that you didn't think you had before.

Take me for instance. I don't think so but quite a handful of my friends have told me that I'm really really independent. Not that I'm boasting because I think its total rubbish. I don't feel I'm independent. I don't know what to do most of the time. I stumble. I fall.

However, them telling me got me thinking, looking over my past actions to come to a conclusion that I may be independent after all. It's just I've never realised it. I could hold my own against most things thrown my way. I think I won't be able to survive life in a boarding school but I'm actually having a blast there. I rarely (because no one can do everything on they own. That's why we have organisations) depend on others to help me with my assignments. I don't need someone to push me to do the things I know I have to do. It's necessary and if I don't do it, who will? So just maybe, maybe I am independent after all.

The whole point of this post (yes I do have a point to make) is to persuade YOU to listen. Listen to what others think of you. Reflect. See if it's really true. And change if necessary but keep if it's a positive thing. You may know your needs best but the one who knows you best is the people around you.

Disclaimer: This entry is written by Afifah (not me!) in her Friendster's blog. Thanks for the reminder kiddo. We 'old' folks really need it for time to time I guess! =P

It's a sad sad day

Before the story is told to the world by my mum, I want to make the announcement myself.

I am getting married on...













..... the day I get married! Hehhe. Pathetic joke I know. Like how I feel. It would have been very very very funny if it had happened to someone else. Hahha. My handphone has been flushed down the toilet bowl by non other than her own owner, moi. Me getting married? That's a bluff. But this? Never been truer than ever. You want the details, wait until mama grill updates her blog. And then you can nominate it as joke of the century.


-sad case-



ps: I'll try to get back my old number. So, to those who have my number, keep it. I'll inform on any change of events.

MELANCHOLY

Long for your past,
Prepare for your future,
Know nothing's gonna last,
Life is but a road,
A straight and narrow path,
To our final abode,
But you are never alone,
Allah is always there.

Been busy here and there. Coping with new things to learn and comprehend given such a short while. But can't complain! If Hiyoshi, Sofi, Sol and the other 116 of my classmates, and oh, not forgetting all those who're still studying, head burried in books most of the time (read: silly attempt to be a drama queen) can survive, so can I!!

Turning to a joyous occasion, one of my friends from high school entered wedded bliss at the age of 20 with (brace yourself) a 32 year old Pakistani. Well, they did say love is blind. It's just that it's so overwhelming to see someone you spend 5 years of your teenage-angst-roving years with, the one you faught-laugh-cried with, get whisked away by a knight-stranger in shining armour never to return again. Right. Being a tad bit dramatic there. But anyway, you get the drift. =P

That's about it. Toodles~

PS: Prayers for our brothers and sisters who're Jihadi fi Sabilillah particularly those in Lebanon and Palestine. May Allah guide their souls.